Day 3 and Day 4

We spent the entire weekend fighting. Blokey Boyfriend didn't go away, he went to a pub at 1pm on Friday afternoon and drank until 11pm.

I am concerned about his drinking. He turns nasty and by this I mean nasty comments not aggressive. But nasty is nasty and the comments hurt me. He came home drunk and I mean drunk, falling over drunk and the insults started flying. They say we hurt the people we love and the closest to us and this is certainly true.

He can't stop talking about other women. So I don't trust him. Whenever he goes out a woman always come into it. So I accused him of cheating on me. We fought all weekend. I started this diary because I am losing it and I need somewhere to vent.

I realise we are both losing it.

And that I am equally to blame. I don't trust him and I am insecure. I hate being last and I would love to be treated better. I want the love, the breakfasts, the sweetness. I want the fantasy of a good and healthy relationship.

I too have to work out how and when this got so bad. And if it is worth saving.
When you fight with someone all weekend including insults, name calling and not even touching each other ...

well we missed out on fun, breakfasts, sex, sleeping in and friends. Our weekend was shit.